Inspiring Moments ++

Assalamualaikum to all of my virtual friends.First of all hello friends,hello teachers,hello sifu and at last of the intro is "HELLO WORLD" oh this type of word is remind me about java last last semester.[Ignore It] Totally I am really miss this type of "job" which is writing typing and then reading .Oh blogwalking,miss these kinds of my part time .I am already plan to update blog after final but how sad is I don't have anytime to update and story .If you noticed,my post is too long and I just post one in a month.Since my life hectic here.Yes,my time is too pack and limited.I thought I will get free of life after I stay up about three days before final.Yes,this is what Allah already plans for me.Allah has arranged these kinds of jobs to me.

When I'm back home there a load of work to do related to issues problem [Currently Issues][PRU13]. Actually,belum cukup dewasa masih lagi separa dewasa[Lupakan desas desus undi mengundi].Elok sampai rumah esok tu dah dapat call untuk kerja.Actually dah plan nak rehat rehat,rest my mind regangkan otot-otot but ohhhh.Somehow,I don't know if I CAN or CAN'T .I have to choose either one.Alhamdulillah,Allah give me a strength to work again.I work as a waitress as a part time job about one weeks than I am officially quit because I have some problems.So,these is what Allah want to test me.I went to Hospital Penang and take care of  Maksu.She has to fight her diseases with a high of risk.So if you count two weeks for this holiday is totally filled and already full with the activities that I never plan!And it is like torturing man.Rasa macam oh packnya life sekarang .Time is flying too fast which means I can't plan anything for the other 4 weeks left to meet another semester which is the climax part *How scared* I am not ready 100%.Believe me,dear friends.

p/s : Please find and press Crtl + F4 button if you are bored,Ctrl + Shift +T if you are interested then :D

[Back to the topic]

The precious part that keep inspiring me is when I am in the hematology ward almost a weeks.I learn a variety of strength,spiritual,emotional and life happening now.I am grateful because I am still a common person, not a patients .Yes,maybe I am not ready to face this "time".Being a part time doctor because it seem too early for me to know about these disease.Sincerely,in ward I am being a good listener for some patients with their own and differences problem and stories. Their story make my heart burst but I have to support them inside and outside and keep take care and pay attention to them.Doctor and nurse have many patients they don't have enough time to focus on one patients only.They have many patients that need them in one time.[Respect them]Sometime,at night I become a "nurse" for them become a listener and sleeping partner.I admit that being a doctor is not an easy things.is not EASY!I am sincerely to take care of Maksu and other patients.I miss the moment in hospital with maksu,doctor,nurse,patients,guard and cleaner.It is an amazing experiences.After all,I got a bunch of strength because I knew there are another person has a tough life than me.I am grateful enough now.I learned how to be a grateful person today.

One word Alhamdullilah

In the ward I knew many people ,I got some friends and make friends with people around me.It is the best part .I am still improving my socializing skill.Then, I have English teacher that correct me if i am wrong when speaking with her.Auntie Ong that really talkative person.She is Chinese.I am comfortable when chit chat with her.She is like a predictor.She can explain our carrier and behavior.Even it is correct sometime but I am keep believing in Allah.Auntie got limpoma disease related to cancer .Red and white blood cells,platelets and other about blood.She actually try to be strong when she always inspiring me and other patient to be strong in life,.Deep inside from her heart I know she is trying to fight her disease inside.Who knows? 

[Hope to move on]

Every night she is screaming and crying because of unbearable pain. Same goes to Maksu got infected by gland cancer and I am responsible to support and give full of strength to Maksu. Please,be strong.We are here with you and will accompany you until you get a better life and "sembuh" like another patients yang hampir sembuh.I know you are strong. Cancerians is really scared because they always imagine to face a "death" after they fight .They know almost how much days and month they can bear with their disease.But they can avoid all of these feeling by praying to be strong and try to be strong to get a full of strength to fight what ever happen. Insyaallah,Allah will ease everything we do.

(Process of healing is to test our patient not our anger,if not just consider it is a test from Allah) 

Be strong! Life must go on!

Patients pain is on off so they have try to be strong at a time ,they don't have to wait for time because time always chasing for them.

Sebenarnya tak mudah untuk para manusia normal imagine macamana rasa nak lawan penyakit itu atau ini.

Hanya pesakit sahaja yang boleh rasa.Sakit orang lain-lain.Macam tu jugak masalah yang rasa terlalu berat untuk face and forget alone.Di mana saat orang lain susah nak rasa masalah kita.Hanya kita yang rasa jadi perasaannya sangat berbeza.The hardest part went we have to peram, pendam sampai dendam dan susah nak lepaskan.Sama jugak macam life yang kadang kadang rasa terlalu sayang untuk lepas dan lupakan hanya untuk sementara tapi sayang bukan selamanya.Jadi deal dan berjuang lah hingga ke penghujung pintu bukan hanya di tengah tengah kotak pintu yang sentiasa ada dan terbuka untuk lost anytime.Please be a loudest mindend person.Orang cakap "Try and fail,but don't fail to try"

Auntie always remind me "Take care of your health,please don't be like me because it is hurt, very painful and suffer but you are lucky person"

The last word I didn't get what she means.

p/s Entry kali ini agak panjang pulak.After this,I have to settle a bundle of things because my bro's wedding is around a corner.After a big day,I want to focus more on my FYP.Insyaallah.Pray for me.To all friends,readers and virtual friends you are invited :D 

Till then,

Sekian,salam.

Final Mood

Salam semua,nampaknya makin hari makin sibuk menunaikan kerjaya sebagai seorang student .Macam biasa akhir akhir semester mostly busy dengan final yes final say loudly FINAL and it is a bit shock for me because i am not ready yet after finished my future "project".I just can say i just ready 1 over 10 % ,i don't know why this semester is really tough and never wake up or realize for every mistake.Yes ,sometime people can influence by their surrounding but if they have their determination of course they can change.Somehow,bukan nak cakap pasal others human.but it is totally point out to me.Life ni kadang kadang macam variable perlu ada dollar($) sign at first baru boleh execute but it still not complete without start and end syntax.Tak pun variable tu perlu assign to values baru ada semangat kot.Kalau apa yang kita buat tu ada value mungkin lagi worth dan lagi semangat nak chase till the end.Means the values become worth when we work harder than others.Then,result pun pasti lagi gempak.Yang penting usaha lebih dapat lebih.Doa,Tawakal :D .Tawakal tu aku selalu buat.

Frankly speaking,i am not confident with myself to be more discipline than others.I don't know why I should be like this! I'm just waste my time by watching movie, singing,sleeping, talking, chatting and it really didn't make any sense.See,the attributes must change first ,that's why I think maybe I have to put the dollar symbol as a first character to start my daily life.Manataw,can support me to learn PHP in advance way,Maybe! Just a hope.Nak success bukan senang kalau boleh export and import segala notes dalam slide dengan sekali click  !Haishhh.Insyaallah boleh buat,yang penting confident.Just say yes for our ability :D

Untuk saat saat akhir macam ni perlu baca kena masuk terus,baca terus masuk.Main point adalah FOKUS! Tapi process untuk retrieve and get data then post balik dalam "answer sheet" tu merunsingkan kepala.Kalau ingat okay,kalau tak parah nak fikir fikir dan ingat mengingat . Sekian sahaja untuk kali ini.Rasa terlalu formal dan terlebih technology pulak bahasa.Tak faham just abaikan.

Counting days,time,minute and second to get free from final :D

By the way,Wish me luck for final.

Pray for me to get ready in the future.

Sekian,salam.

31313 Overload Probs.

Salam semua warga warga 'virtual world'. " three one three one three a.k.a 31313 is my favorite number ever" not my favorite date. Agaknya dah sampai penghujung bulan baru sempat untuk aku spend time menulis kembali.Hiatus is a right word to speak.Totally miss everything here.Tak di nafikan lagi anasir - anasir yang membuat jiwa dan raga terbang ke dunia lain.Cuma hati ini tetap tak beralih tetap tak berpusing masih punya emosi ke 'sini'.Blogwalking is my hobby since primary school.Yes,tak mudah untuk melupakan. Bukan konteks melupakan untuk waktu sekarang,kalau konteks melupakan 'panjang cerita' . Tetapi kesibukan yang memerlukan kekuatan mental fizikal malah emosi untuk fight dengan error-error yang akan berlaku.

Ya,akan berlaku tidak lama lagi.Sekarang errors errors tersebut telah merebak menjadi virus yang membuat diri ini susah nak jadi default kembali .Mungkin aku kena create satu button yang boleh reset data atau memori dalam diri.Reset watak sediakala menjadi rajin lebih daripada biasa.Agaknya mungkin faktor umur yang membenarkan aku semakin berani.Aku hanya mengganggap ini 'fake lumrah' yang akan dilalui tika ini atau zaman ini.Aku terima kekurangan yang membuat kan aku confuse samada aku bangga atau kecewa. Confusing will convert me into a blur person. Respect me if needed.If not ignore me.Else the end.Goodbye :)

Kalau boleh buat ' function progress bar ' mungkin kerja akan jadi overload ! Dan ini akan membuat jiwa separuh jalan ,raga separuh mati sampai  aku perlu stay satu hari sampai pagi.Harap sangat tak berulang lagi.

Tapi kalau kira dateline due date final date study week it's seem sangat dekat .Solution sekarang ada cuma tak dapat laksanakan .Apatah lagi nak compile kan banyak lagi errors yang perlu di improve untuk one complete program. If semicolon is missing i know how to check edit and run again but if emotion spiritual missing I can' control i don't know which button could I choose as a last option to forget everything .Till then hati ini mungkin akan stop running and I can't imagine what kind of problem to shoot me soon  .I hope i can be strong for everything I face right now .Because I know reset button doesn't help me a lot.Sometime I got jealous to someone who can express,share and cry a part of her problem but how sad, I never to feel it up.Truly never.I just stand and solve on my own and It's seem really really hard.I accept it as my weakness that never be apart kot ! 

Mungkin bahasa aku memerlukan masa untuk 'cycle in mind' .So,take your time.Terlebih emotional pulak mungkin kelajuan signal yang maxima kot ! Hanya untuk kali ini.

Kalau hari hari macam ni online in black and white 'bg' make my eye really in grey.Oh no !

I'm sorry 'bow ninety degrees' for myself because always extend works. 

I have to overwrite all the works before it's overload.

Pray for me and wish me luck dear friends.

Sekian,salam.